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Winter Blues...








I am sick of winter...


I am SO sick of blah snowy days, or ultra freezing days.


I am sick of shoveling, salt on my car, having to park in my yard creating huge ruts in my grass, exorbinant Cilco bills, sick kids, sick boyfriends, and travel restrictions.


I am ready for spring.


I am ready for renewal.


For happier, warmer days.


Using the grill, Bubba playing in the yard, birds chirping, fresh cut grass and happier days.


I am blue.


Boyfriend bought a house and is stressed. We have had very limited time together because of -as I stated before, sickness, weather and his closing on the house.


I miss him.


And I think I am losing him.


Maybe it is all because I ran out of pills and went off of them for a week...who knows.

My neuroticism knows no bounds, afterall.


I just know that I am pretty blue, depressed, sad, and worried.


I am desperately trying to climb out of this seemingly dreary existance, but it's been difficult.


I need a change in atmosphere and weather and I need to be graduated and on to bigger, better things.

The irony is that the one thing I don't desire change for is my relationship status.

But that may be changing whether I like it or not.


I won't go into details, let's just say that a stalemate has been created and I am not sure how to break through it.


So...if I am not blogging much, now you know why.


I just don't have a creative bone right now, as much as I have tried to.


I just want the long winter to end and the spring to begin...


With boyfriend still by my side.


Here's to hoping...


-Jaded

Comments

My Flock Rocks! said…
I haven't heard for you and hope all is well! Hang in there...it does get better! Or so I have heard. I will leave you with a song because I can express through music better than words:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXARdPb4YBs

Hugs Jaded!
March 3, 2008 at 3:17 PM
Jadedgirl said…
Oh honey...I am so sorry that I havent returned your calls...I have a great excuse though, I promise. I have laryngitis, and strep throat. I literally cannot talk a peep. I have been feverish and miserable. But thank you for being concerned...as always, and please know I wasn't blowing ya off..Just feeling crappy and can't strain my throat.

HUGS as always! :o)

-T
March 3, 2008 at 9:17 PM
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