Winter Blues...

I am sick of winter...

I am SO sick of blah snowy days, or ultra freezing days.

I am sick of shoveling, salt on my car, having to park in my yard creating huge ruts in my grass, exorbinant Cilco bills, sick kids, sick boyfriends, and travel restrictions.

I am ready for spring.

I am ready for renewal.

For happier, warmer days.

Using the grill, Bubba playing in the yard, birds chirping, fresh cut grass and happier days.

I am blue.

Boyfriend bought a house and is stressed. We have had very limited time together because of -as I stated before, sickness, weather and his closing on the house.

I miss him.

And I think I am losing him.

Maybe it is all because I ran out of pills and went off of them for a week...who knows.

My neuroticism knows no bounds, afterall.

I just know that I am pretty blue, depressed, sad, and worried.

I am desperately trying to climb out of this seemingly dreary existance, but it's been difficult.

I need a change in atmosphere and weather and I need to be graduated and on to bigger, better things.

The irony is that the one thing I don't desire change for is my relationship status.

But that may be changing whether I like it or not.

I won't go into details, let's just say that a stalemate has been created and I am not sure how to break through it.

So...if I am not blogging much, now you know why.

I just don't have a creative bone right now, as much as I have tried to.

I just want the long winter to end and the spring to begin...

With boyfriend still by my side.

Here's to hoping...

-Jaded